I have a nice camera. A camera capable of taking very lovely pictures, with a multitude of settings and buttons and things that can turn even crappy pictures into interesting ones. It takes beautiful pictures, capturing moments in time and random ephemera of my life.
But the thing is, I’m embarrassed by my camera.
Not the camera itself, mind you. Just having the big bulky thing. Carrying it in a camera bag. Hauling it out. Its size and bulk makes it impossible to camoflauge, to hide the fact that yes, I’m taking a photo.
You see, since I got an iPhone, I’ve enjoyed many things about it. But until we went to Europe, I didn’t realize what I’ve enjoyed the most is being able to surreptitiously take photos. I mean, most people know what I’m doing, but maybe I’m checking my email, or showing someone my screen, or trying to find a signal. Who knows? But with a camera, everyone knows what you’re doing.
Am I embarrassed to even be taking photos? Maybe. Especially in Europe, where I tried to not look like such a tourist as much as I could. I would take out my camera to take a photo of something small and mundane, and see people looking at me, and wondering, why is that woman taking a photo of that tree?
As someone who loves food, this becomes especially embarrassing in a restaurant. Often the lighting is low, so I’m forced to use flash to even take a photo. It’s embarrassing to take out a DLSR at the dinner table and photograph the food, for me. It’s so much easier to snap a quick photo with my phone.
With my phone, I got used to the anonymity of it. I got used to being inconspicuous. It’s hard to be inconspicuous with a big camera.
Also, from a practical standpoint, it’s way easier to whip out my phone and take a photo than my camera. Plus, with my phone, I can immediately share my photos with everyone.
Does anyone else feel this way? Am I the only one who doesn’t like taking out my camera anymore?